Everyone's getting a ring. I think I'd better check my phone.

First, a huge CONGRATULATIONS to my friends who's getting married this year and early next year. Woot!


Now this somehow bothers me or I'm just putting this imaginary pressure on my self to finally get married and settle down with someone. People say I'm too young to get married. What exactly is the right age to be wed?  I mean in some cultures if you reach the age of 10, your parents are already planning for your wedding and not your coming of age party. You'd better have more than 5 kids or else, you won't contribute much to the community. Okay well maybe in those cultures, a family is the base of the society and would probably need more to be able to survive in their community. That's not the exact idea I'm thinking but it's not so bad to share.


Anyway, some people know they're meant to be with someone. And some people just get into an accident and be with someone (the baby on the way sitch). But then others aren't sure if they really want to be with the one they're with. It all boils down in the idea of being ready to finally put the period in the single chapter of their lives.


In an old blog, I said I plan to get married between the age of 26-28. Right now I think that plan is being placed at the back burner. A plan is a plan right? It's a long term plan too... and right now I think I'd better not expect too much. I have to take it slow and not rush it but I still should have that dream. The dream is all I have.

I wonder when I will see a ring on my finger? I'm like every girl who wants to have an engagement ring. But I want it so simple, the diamond so small. I want to keep my simplicity that way.

... and like I said, to dream is all I have..

Dear Cupid: Don't forget to Aim.

Dear Cupid,

Well there goes another Valentine's Day. Did you manage to shoot some arrows to the waiting lovers below? You shower golden arrows in all directions, hoping to hit some people who need it most. I guess you missed me this year.

I found myself thinking about all the past Valentine's that I had and I realized I had higher hopes then. There was a surprise flower before too that made fall so inlove. And remember the sweet dates? I mean litterally sweet. You worked your magic on me through those significant actions.

I used to think that Valentine's isn't so important at all. It's just a commercial holiday where sales on chocolates, flowers and cards go up. But Valentine's is more than the stuff you buy from retailers. I just think it's no longer just about the material things that you bought but what it means when you give it to the person you love. Suddenly the overpriced flowers and chocolates becomes priceless because the girl knows it's more than the flowers and sweets, it's what the guy who thought about it that counts.

The feeling of being remembered today was what I was hoping for.

Well Cupid, I missed Valentine's this year. I wasn't able to show the kind of love that I want to show, nor was I able to receive the kind of love I was hoping to get. Not to mention the whole morning and afternoon I was so angry at something at work that the whole day just passed by. Sorry, I hadn't been paying attention to your holiday maybe that's why the golden arrow missed me.

They say love should always be celebrated everyday. Tomorrow, maybe you could give me another day? I just want to feel a little special, even just a little please? Just one day to be remembered :)

Thanks,
xoxo

Lungkot na lungkot na..

Pagod na ang mata sa pag-luha.

Pagod na ang isip sa pag-alala.

Pagod na rin ang puso sa sakit na nadarama.

Pagod nang maging isang problema.

Tinanggap na ang lahat, pinilit nang baguhin, pero di pa rin matinag ang katigasan ng puso. HIndi na ninais na ibalik ang nakaraan kungdi mag-bago na lamang ang hinaharap.

Pagod nang maghintay, ilang beses nang nagdasal sa itaas. Sana ako naman ang pagbigyan.

Magulo na ang isipan... sana mag-laho na lang akong parang bula.