We'll make it through,

Love is never an easy task. You give up a lot of yourself for the other person. You become stupid so you will accept what is happening. You try and make something new just so it won't be boring. You learn to get jealous and find out that you can get mad even at the smallest things. All of this and much more you do just for love, and for the love of the other person you care for.

And so here I am trying to unlearn and learn at the same time. Working on rekindling the spark and getting us both at our feet. Recalling the advices that I gave to friends and now trying it myself. It isn't easy and thankfully, none that I know told me it will be (I easily believe what people tell me sometimes). 

Love takes work. I need a lot of things: patience, understanding, wisdom, concern, sweetness, ideas, time, attention, and so much more. I know I have alot of these but then I realized they're not enough. I noticed that I too can be selfish. You have to show that you understand  them even if they're wrong sometimes. You have to make sure your partner is not alone especially when you're there. You have to be always supportive. And most of all you need to learn how to change yourself. 

It is no longer "I" and "Me." It's already "Us" and "We." Even though things can get tricky sometimes, I know we'll make it through.

Tirang Alaala

Nakita ko lang may picture pala kami ng ex ko sa isang Multiply site ng kaibigan namin. Dalawang taon na rin ang nakaraan matapos nyang pag pira-pirasuhin ang damdamin ko. Ngayon wala na yun sa akin. Wala na rin sya sa buhay ko. Ganap nang kinalimutan. Ngunit minsan hindi rin maiwasan ang mga pagkakataon na madaanan ang isang photo album at dun makita ang dating masayang araw na pinagsamahan. Naalala ko rin na napanaginipan ko sya at gusto nya kong yakapin pero pilit akong umiwas. Naka-ngiti pa rin sya nun. Kung ano man ang ibig sabihin ng panaginip na yun, di ko na inalam. Kahit anong limot pa rin natin sa isang tao o sitwasyon, meron pa ring tirang alaala na dadaan at mawawala na kasing bilis ng pagdadaan nito sa isipan.

Quote

"May you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn't live a day without you." 

- quote from the movie "Leap Year"

My Haiku

I am a bamboo

Blown away by the strong wind

In all directions.

Maybe

I just want to share a blog my brother posted long ago...

Maybe... were supposed to meet the wrong person before meeting the right one...Only then will we know how to appreciate that gift.

Maybe... it's true that we don't know what we have until we lose it...But it's also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe... the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past...After all, you can't go on successfuly in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe... we should hope for enough trials to make us strong, enough sorrow to make us human and enough hope to make us happy.

Maybe... the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything...
They just make the most of everything that comes along their way. 

Maybe... happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried...For only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe... there are moments in life when you miss someone - a parent, spouse, or a friend...So much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around, you'll appreciate them even more.

Maybe... giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart.
If it doesn't, then be content that it grew in yours. 

Maybe... you should dream what you want to dream... go where you want to go... be what you want to be...

Because you have only one life to live and one chance to do all these things.

Baby be mine

I saw my colleagues youngest son today. He's so energetic and playful; he keeps running around and he's not shy around other people. He's talkative and even though you don't understand what he's trying to tell you, he would tell you the story anyway. He's a good kid and I think he'll be a heart breaker someday.

As I watch him skip and run about, I was filled with a longing of having a child. And when I saw him hold his mom's hand, envy strangely crept in me. I've always dreamed of having a kid of my own.

The nurturing side in me once again aches.