When you...

When you're alone in the office...

you have a tendency to dillydally.. to surf about unimportant things in the internet... you get some 5 minute shut-eye since you think no one will notice and no one's there to bother you. time seems so slow but you like being alone in the office: the door closed and lights off. you contemplate on your own.

When you miss someone...

you barely eat. and you don't even know why you're so bothered when you know he's just a call and chat away. but your day isn't complete when you don't miss him at all. his name comes out in a form of a sigh, and dusty window panes seems to be the best place to write down his name. and after all the thinking and sighing, you wonder if he misses you too.

When you like someone...

you have a tendency to dive into the feelings and think that it is love that you feel already. but it isn't. you still have to go through the all the levels: crush, infatuation, like then love. it ain't easy to like someone... because at the level of like, when something happens and things didn't turn out the way you had hoped, you become devastated and eventually, break your heart. so be careful when you like someone.

When you try to start a conversation...

you start to imagine what they'll say. you hope that they're as open-minded like you. during a conversation, you already try and think what their answer will be so that you'll be prepared to answer back. just like chess, you think ahead when you move.

When you write a blog...

you risk revealing yourself too much to people. especially when you go public with what you write. and when you write about someone, you risk revealing too much of what you feel.

When you're torn, lost or confused...

you can't find the answer in any books. sometimes you just have to look deep inside yourself and reflect why you feel lost (but you're the reason I'm lost).