What you want to hear, you hear from a song

Emo music. Thanks Mr. Josef Zafra for introducing me to those kinds of songs.

I remember you asked me if I want to listen instead to emo music when we were in your car. I told you of my problem then. But I wanted to listen to it somewhere else... maybe by a cliff while you park the car and we just sit under the star-filled sky, while drinking and throwing away cans of beer and smoking too.

Yeah... emo effect... we can make a music video out of that... then the finale would be me jumping over the clif.. oh well. Antipolo's far...

What you want to hear...if you tell people about something, they won't tell you what you want to hear. Only a song can give you that. It makes things clearer when you listen to songs. Inspirational, liturgical, rock, emo, love songs... all of it. They all tell you what you need to do. Plain and simple. And you can't tell a song off. It's made that way.

I'm listening to Tori Amos' s Sleeps With Butterflies. Who's the butterfly? I used to silently dedicate that song to someone I used to consider special (a few years ago...). But this song doesn't isn't for everyone I fell for. More of, it's for me. It's telling me not to hold on, not to wait. Well, not yet. Just let them go... let him find his place. And if you're lucky, he might return to you... let's hope it's not too late by then. But I'm the optimistic type. I always say, I'm still here if you need me (okay BOOM... there goes another song... Vertical Horizon's I'm Still Here).

I'll continue on listening to alot of songs... Maybe one of them has the answer on where I can find love... and give my self another chance to fall.

(Dad... I mentioned you kasi na-miss ko bigla ang Ybardo's time natin na tayo lang haha.. Emo's... :P)