Da da da da dada dadada da DADADA!

watched the simpsons movie last saturday at the promenade for a date :) it's a funny movie and i really recommend watching it. green day and tom hanks are guests in the movie (spoilers!!). as usual, it had the comedic flair, with the injection of "protect nature" messages, that is expected from a simpsons show. we saw the lfs but it was worthit.

from start to finish, the movie kept on making me laugh on every thing the characters had been doing. really, really good so please watch it. i'm sure you'll enjoy it too.

next on my list: ratatouille. we were supposed to watch that last saturday but unfortunately, all the movie houses were packed. maybe next time...

shoutout: thanks oliver =*

 

I know what you're doing..

... I see it all too clear.. I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears...

okay.. probably a not so good title. just had to get the song out of my head.

im now in my new company, SAP. moved in only last 18-July. again, i had to make a choice. no matter what it is, i made a decision and the consequences and responsibilities (whatever they maybe) are mine. it's quite enjoyable here, really. there are half of the people here from my previous company and they are friendly. there are 3 of us in the team, and im still learning at the moment but im sure ill be able to get my hands on it in time (hopefully soon).

been going out with friends lately for some drinks... hehe.. i miss my oracle buddies =P

Rants and Raves

rave: my shirt dress from celine! its a sale so i couldn't  resist! im a shopaholic :P
rant: my phone.. i just had it cleaned 2 weeks back, now the stupid joystick is being troublesome again argh...
rave: michelle's  hair! rebonded beautifully!
rant: not being able to attend the oracle kick-off... because i moved to sap.. =P
rave: my LBD! I bought it for the oracle kick-off.. ended up using it at the sap after party haha
rant: humid weather.. argh.. im sweating like hell..
rave: marketing position! hehe
rant: the Girlfriend magazine isn't sold in all the magazine stands I know...
rave: drinking! hahaha i had 4 vodka sprite last thursday! went home drunk.. =P

 

to be continued... ;)

Writing on a blank piece of paper

Dahil sa'yo wala nanaman akong maisulat. Dahil din sa'yo, tulala nanaman ako at hinahayaan na lang mag tae ang bolpen ko sa puting papel. ni ang keyboard ko hindi nag iingay kasi wala akong maitype. gusto ko sanang gawing ikaw ang sentro ng isusulat ko kaso di ko alam kung san ako magsisimula. bakit kaya pagdating sayo, wala akong masabi? hindi ko alam pano magsisimula ng isang pangungusap sa isang talata para sa'yo.  pinilit kong magsulat kaso wala talaga. wala akong masabi. hindi ko alam kung pano ilalarawan ng maayos kung pano ako napapangiti na lang pag nakikita kita. sa sobrang kaba, yuyuko na lang ako para lang hindi mo makitang nakangiti na ako. ginawan na kita ng isang tula kaso nahihiya pa rin ako. may naka-basa na ng tulang yon. siguro iisipin mo, "buti pa yung iba nakabasa na ng tulang gawa mo". sa totoo lang, pati sayo naipakita ko na yun, di mo nga lang naisip na para sa'yo yung ginawa ko. di ko alam kung manhid ka lang talaga o kulang pa yung ginagawa ko. mahirap din kasi akong intindihin eh. gusto kita kaso nahihiya akong sabihin sa'yo. akala ko nung una alam mo na pero hindi mo pa rin pala gets yung sinasabi ko.

Bakit kaya lagi na lang speechless ako pagdating sa'yo? Pati ibang tao nagtatanong na sa akin. Akala mo naman isa akong directory, hinahanap ka nila. Kungdi ka man hanapin sa akin, magtatanong tungkol sa ating dalawa. Yun ang malabo. Wala namang "tayong dalawa" di ba? Sa hitsura mo pa lang pag binibiro nila, kumpirmadong wala nga. Ako lang siguro yung nagiisip na sana, kung kelan man yun, naisip mo ring may gusto ka sa akin. Kahit sobrang malabo ang pagkakataon na yun, siguro naman meron din.

Ayun, balik nanaman ako sa blangkong papel. dinrowingan ko na lang ng kung ano. Pero ikaw ang nasa isip ko habang ginagawa ko to. Kung exam to, bagsak na ko. Pass the papers na, wala pa rin..

Where are you?

i've  tried searching for a name in Multiply and found that it doesn't exist at all (or yet..?). that name only needs a face, or rather i have a face in mind but im not sure of a name. and so i just created a name for him. whoever that person is, at the moment he only exists in my mind. but i guess in some ways, it's better that way. i've got a wild imagination and i always let my mind wander off somewhere, creating images that makes me put to paper my thoughts. 

funny when you've got someone in mind, there are alot of things you dream of doing. and in your dreams, that is where you create a play to practice on for real life. and in the fantasy that is where you're  brave enough to say something you couldn't say in real life. i don't want people getting inside my head. it's so full of weird stuff that i don't want to file any 'missing persons' report the next day.

where are you? are you even here? these are the questions for that person i'm looking for. i don't have any objective to finding him, i guess i just wanted the comfortable feeling that he exists. okay, maybe not comfortable but the magical feeling when you  meet that person and realize  he's actually existing right here, right now.

... but i'm still scared.  he might not be the person i imagined he would be, so at the moment it's better that he stays in my head. at least in there, i know who and what he is, and talking to him is  much easier.

PLEEEEEASE READ!!!! it was on the news! ASAP.. Hello!

ever get a forwarded email like that? the one that says something like Microsoft is going to pay you an X amount of money if you forward it to some people blah blah? the story goes like a company just doesn't want a case filed against them (i have no idea what its about) and so if you send the email to everyone in your list, you're gonna get a check in your mail after 2 weeks. just got an email like that again but I checked the history, it goes way back to 2003 (!!!)

so makes you think how long is the 2 weeks they said in the email where you can get the money they owe you. im not sure if its true or what (though i think at the year we are in now, its probably not) but its just funny to expect something like that. hey if they can search where and who you are, that's invasion of privacy isn't it?

The Big Leap

im confused. i dont know whether to be excited or nervous. i both am at the moment but it feels more like i dont want to wake up the following morning. this is unexpected but it came and im glad it did. i just dont know if i should say it or what. i cant tell those people close to me because i dont want to pre-empt the situation. i cant tell them that because it might cause some eyebrows to raise (but i expect that to happen).

i just want to sleep well tonight and be ready for a decision i need to face tomorrow. im nervous but im excited at the same time. i met alot of people today and they're all so nice to me. its good to have met them atleast.

as what my dad said "choose the one that challenges you" and it does matter if i want to grow.

so here's to a good night sleep and a sunny tomorrow...

To one person, you are the world

one name can make or break my day. one smile can make me happy. one message on the phone can brighten a dreary morning. one call can contain surprises. only one touch can make you feel wanted, but only for a moment. one look can make me fluster and drown in it. one glance would make me think of ways to keep it. one moment of holding your hand completed a part of a fantasy. one photo made me hope of wanting more. one invitation made my heart beat fast. one dinner was enough to make me feel close to you. one joke about you can turn me red. one thought of you, is just one of the million more thoughts made of you. one laugh from you makes me want to hug you. one tiny gift has made me feel special. one news about you made a part of my hopes crumble. one night of seeing you with someone made a tear fall. one dream, i always wish would come true.

and one name created a fantasy in me. one name made me hope. one name contradicted everything i say. one name made me lie. one name is driving me crazy. one name is confusing me. one name i always want to forget but couldn't. one name is so common it can be anyone. one name has only that smile, that laugh, that touch, that thought... and he's only one. and he's a someone to some girl's world.

The Dream's Story

I saw her standing there, draped in white linen. She stood under the mango tree and I could see her take a deep sigh. This is her story:

"I once held him here (a vision formed beside her.. like all other dreams, its just an imagination) and we looked into each other's eyes, not talking at all. Sometimes, you talk things through silence, and you understand every meaning of it in his eyes. We had a great adventure with love, like the roller coasters we can see from a distance. He wasn't like all the other men I've met. He was ill tempered but his touch is soft. He was strict, but caring. He was strong, and yet when I held him, he was like a child (She sat down on the grass, the vision of the man rested its head on her lap). But as a woman, my mind changes and I wanted more. I know he can move the mountains and catch a falling star for me if I ask him too. However, doubt has always been a companion and misery followed soon after. I couldn't see my self with him like before, even the reflections I cast on the water cry out to me to run back to his arms and take that big leap with him. I wanted more than the stars in the sky.. and I went looking for it but found that none of them can stay in my hands long enough.

In the end, my dreams have crumbled and it is all because of me. Under this tree, he left a note and said good bye. He didn't even wait for me to reply to him. Only the wind helped brush away the tears that have fallen. I wanted more than the stars in the sky... but it was too late when I realized, this man is already the creator of my world and he once gave me an eternity I never asked."

At that moment, she wept. And when she tried to kiss the vision lying on her lap, it dissappeared into thousands of butterflies. Not even one of them left a kiss on her cheek.

Romansa Espesyal by Mike's Apartment

Watched my friend Mike and his band, Mike's Apartment, at the Temple Bar last Jun 28. It started around 10:30 pm and I got home around 1am. Dragged 2 friends along for the gig: Michelle, my Canadian beauty, and Lalaine, my office siren. Of course, the usual, we had a round of drinks (courtesy of Mike, thanks so much!) and the 3 of us chatted away to the night (well we tried.. the first band was too loud, we were almost shouting at each others ears...). My favorite song that night is called "Deliryo" (I think) and it did sound so familiar. Quito (another officemate) said they have a video of it so I'm trying to look for it now.

Glad to know I have a new friend who actually has a band of his own. And to think Mike is so young and he can compose songs and belt it out with passion in front of people. WOW. I'm amazed, really. They said they have an LP out already and I plan to get one my self.

Their band, like all the other bands who played that night, are all underground. They don't exactly profit for their music (sometimes) but they do have the passion for it. Sometimes, those kinds are hard to beat in the music industry.

P.S. If Mike's Apartment sounds quite familiar but is NOT exactly what you would think of a band name, send me a message and I'll tell you all about it.