Where are you?

i've  tried searching for a name in Multiply and found that it doesn't exist at all (or yet..?). that name only needs a face, or rather i have a face in mind but im not sure of a name. and so i just created a name for him. whoever that person is, at the moment he only exists in my mind. but i guess in some ways, it's better that way. i've got a wild imagination and i always let my mind wander off somewhere, creating images that makes me put to paper my thoughts. 

funny when you've got someone in mind, there are alot of things you dream of doing. and in your dreams, that is where you create a play to practice on for real life. and in the fantasy that is where you're  brave enough to say something you couldn't say in real life. i don't want people getting inside my head. it's so full of weird stuff that i don't want to file any 'missing persons' report the next day.

where are you? are you even here? these are the questions for that person i'm looking for. i don't have any objective to finding him, i guess i just wanted the comfortable feeling that he exists. okay, maybe not comfortable but the magical feeling when you  meet that person and realize  he's actually existing right here, right now.

... but i'm still scared.  he might not be the person i imagined he would be, so at the moment it's better that he stays in my head. at least in there, i know who and what he is, and talking to him is  much easier.