Sir Jun's Legacy

"Good, better, best. Don't let it rest. Until your good becomes better, and your better becomes your best."

"The quality lingers on, while the price is forgotten." (what he learned when he bought from Gucci store.)

- some words of wisdom that a VIP of ours gave me and my associates when I visited our store in Greenbelt 1. Thank you Sir Jun for imparting us that wisdom. :)

Minsan

Minsan kailangan mo mag-tiis lalo na kapag nahihirapan ka pero alam mong maganda pa rin ang kalalabasan nito sa huli. Kailangan mo lang tiyagain ang bawat pagsubok na darating sa buhay mo dahil dun ka rin matututo kung ano ang gagawin mo sa susunod na mangyari ulit yun.

Minsan hindi lahat ng tao maniniwala sa sinasabi mo. Dahil mas madalas, niloloko mo lang ang sarili mo. Aminin na natin, kailangan gawan ng dahilan ang maraming bagay na nangyayari, pero kung magsisinungaling ka rin naman, siguraduhin mong alam mo ang sinasabi mo at gagawan mo rin ng paraan para makabawi ka.

Minsan may taong darating sa buhay mo para ma-inlove ka. Pero minsan din hindi mo sigurado kung totoo ba yung love na yun. Mahal mo nga yung tao pero ibang klase ng pagmamahal pala yung nararamdaman mo. Itanong mo muna kung ano nararamdaman nya bago ka magdesisyon na iwan ang taong yun. Baka naman ikaw yung nagkukulang, o baka naman pwede pa gawan ng paraan at kailangan nyo lang magbigayan at mag-usap.

Minsan pagsasabihan ka: ng magulang mo, ng kapatid mo, ng teacher mo, ng boss mo, o kaya naman ng ibang tao na hindi mo ka close. Wag mong ismolin yung mga sinasabi nila. Mas kilala mo nga ang sarili mo pero malay mo, meron silang napapansin sa'yo na hindi mo napapansin sa sarili mo. Likas talaga sa tao ang hindi pansinin ang sariling pagkakamali o pagtrato sa iba. Mag ingat ka pa rin at hindi mo alam kung sino nakakasangga mo.

Minsan naman kailangan mong matutong mag hintay. Lahat ng tao dumaraan sa ganyan. Maghintay ka lang at wag kang mainip. Darating din yun, kung sino man at ano man yun. Maghintay ka lang.

...pero kung alam mong wala ka nang pag-asa at mawawalan din ng saysay ang paghihintay mo, dapat matuto ka rin naman na bumitaw at iwan na yun. Hindi lahat ng bagay o tao kailangan mong hintayin. Hindi sila nakakaramdam na kailangan din naman pala nila balikan yung naghihintay sa kanila.

Minsan, magiging mag isa ka talaga. Hindi lahat ng tao magiging kasama mo, magiging kaibigan mo. Hindi lahat ng tao available. Magiging mag isa ka talaga. Pero isipin mo pa rin na hindi ka nag-iisa at may dahilan yun. Sinasabihan ka lang ng utak mo na mag usap naman kayo at magkalinawan. Di mo na kasi siguro napapansin yung mga nangyayari sa katawan mo at sa isipan mo. Kailangan mong mag solo upang makinig.

Ganyan talaga ang buhay: minsan nasasabihan, minsan naiiwanan, minsan nakakalimutan, minsan ginugulo ang isipan, minsan tinatamad, minsan tinatarayan, minsan walang kaibigan. Pero minsan din may darating na magpapangiti sa'yo.... yun... yun yung mas importante.

Thoughts

- Kung ayaw may dahilan, kung gusto laging may paraan.

- No matter how you feel, stand up, dress up and show up.

- There's no point in making excuses when they know already what you did.

Imagine

"Sometimes, when you stop for a while, you'll feel a warm embrace... that's me imagining hard enough to make it come true."

- july 1, 2009

Prayer of A Weary Heart

Lead my heart, oh Lord, to a place full of love and rest. When I feel that I am about to give up, hold out Your hand so that I may reach up. When sadness fills my spirit, shower me with the goodness that You have given me: my friends, my work, my life. When I lose strength, Lord, please send an angel to help carry my burden. Whenever my heart is breaking, let me lay down on Your lap and cry for the pain until all the tears have fallen.

You always listen to my prayers Lord and I am truly grateful. Let me not forget that my prayers are always answered in the best form You can give. The answer to my prayers appear in the form of a song, a smile from a dear friend, a laughter from a child, a message from a loved one, the slow dancing of the rain, the brilliant moon rising in the horizon, the simple Cross of your Holy Son, Jesus. I will always remember Lord that You do not give me troubles or burdens that I cannot carry.

You have always been my invisible friend who listens to every rant or story that I say. You do not judge me for You made me and You consider me as Your best creation. You have the biggest heart Lord and You love me as me. You share with us all the happiness that You feel. Your love is endless and inspiring.

Thank You for people who gave me life: my parents. Thank You for my dearest friends whom I consider my brothers and sisters. Thank You for the mentors you send my way. Thank You for the opportunities that I have the option to take. Thank You for the chances and the time that You gave me to change the things I know I can change. Thank You for the lessons in life that made me humble. Thank You for teaching me to love and making me feel loved.

You lead me Lord, to a place of love and rest. And with this prayer, I know I will be at peace. Amen

M.O.: The New Pick Up Line

I was walking in Megamall the other day to visit our Crabtree & Evelyn store when a guy came up to me and introduced himself as a headhunter. He seemed friendly but I was in a hurry then to get to the store so I think I started being masungit. But I was smiling when I spoke to him (just a little on the mataray side...). Below is the conversation I had with him:

Guy: Hi! excuse me miss?

Azy: (annoyed) Yes?

Guy: Hi I saw you kasi and you look like a professional. Do you work here in Ortigas?

Azy: *thinks: professional what?* (raised eyebrow) No I don't.

Guy: Oh I see. I'm Thomas. I'm a headhunter. Do you know what a headhunter is?

Azy: *thinks: duh.. syempre...* Yes I do.

*at this point, I was being mataray and masungit already*

Guy: Ah good because we're looking for young professionals to join our team. We have a client in the US who needs people in...

Azy: What kind of company?

Guy: It's a multinational company. They have a business here and th..

Azy: I know. What kind of company? What industry are they in?

Guy: Oh they have consumer products, manufacturing...

*at this point I think he feels embarrassed and threatened by me*

Guy: Can I ask how long have you been working? Where do you work?

Azy: Four years. I work in Makati. I'm in marketing.

Guy: That's great! Because they need people like you. How long have you been working with your present company?

Azy: Just a month. I joined them only last month. *I answered curtly*

Guy: Oh I see. Well will you be interested to submit your resume to us? Do you have a business card?

Azy: *doubting already* No I don't have one yet. Can I get yours then?

Guy: Oh sorry I left mine at my office. I was just about to go back there when I saw you so I thought already of meeting you... But can I just get your number and I'll contact you on the offer?

Azy: *left eyebrow raised* No I'll just get your number and I'll call you. *starts taking out cellphone*

Azy: sorry I didn't get your name the first time. What's your name again?

Guy: It's Thomas.

Azy: I'm Azy *shakes hand* What's your mobile number?

Guy: Sorry I didn't memorize my number.. I'll just get yours na lang.

Azy: It wouldn't be right for me to give you my number. What's your email then?

Guy: Oh.. well... my email is a bit long eh...

*the guy's slipping....*

Azy: It's okay. I can type it. *takes out phone and starts on the application*

Guy: ah okay.. *guy dictates email*

Azy: Okay thanks.

Guy: Yeah so... thank you for your time Azy. Sorry for the bother.

Azy: It's cool. Bye.

*Azy leaves him and walks to the store.*

I didn't look back at him anymore. I kept his email so I think I'll check on it in Facebook one of these days when I remember. It was a funny incident because he said he's a headhunter. I don't know if real head hunters approach clients that way but it was so unusual. He even hesitated to give me his number and his email (or if he has another plan in mind... that I might not contact him at all :P).

It's a funny approach. I wonder what else he would've said? This is one heck of a way to get girls haha.

Sa Kanya (Ogie Alcasid)

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

Chorus:

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin 
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko 
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan 
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya 

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin

Repeat Chorus:

Adlib:

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh

Sa kanya.

Song

I wanted to write a song about you but all I can start with is one line. I have a melody in my head but I still lack the chorus.

Whatever that song maybe, you're still the sweetest song that I always want to sing...

"I still whisper your name" - the only line I can think of.

"Okay don't worry. I know a place."

"A true friend is someone whom you can call and tell them that you killed someone and after an hour, they're at your doorstep with a shovel in hand, no questions asked. "

(from a crazy friend of mine)

Puff Puff Puff

"I don't smoke." I tell people that before. But I don't mind people smoking. I started smoking when I got so mad at my ex for what he did to me. I was annoyed at him and I know he doesn't like people to smoke and I did what I know he doesn't like. So yes, the reason I started smoking was because of him.

But after 3 months of puffing, I stopped. I said I don't want it anymore and I don't need to wallow in smoke just because of a short, stupid guy. So I stopped. I smoked occasionally after.. about once a month only.

Lately I found myself smoking again. I have a certain set of friends who smoke when we drink. My present boyfriend is one of them. No, I don't think they influenced me. I just thought of trying it again (but very occasionally) which is wrong. But somehow, I think I've smoked a little too often. Not everyday, just every time I feel stressed. And the times I've felt stressed seems to be getting a little too often. But no, I don't smoke that way. I think I feel like smoking only when I'm getting really pissed off.

Anyway, I don't want to smoke anymore. My head hurts and I get dizzy whenever that happens. I used to ask my boyfriend if its okay for me to smoke (yes I ask for his permission) and he said if I want to then I go ahead. But I asked him if he can help me stop this smoking thing that's going on with me. He said he does not have to because I should know already what's right and what's wrong.

Okay.. I was only asking for help. I know he means well but somehow, he's going to let me go on what I do.. and I can't get him to help me. I was expecting maybe a "I'll help you. Don't worry you just have to stop thinking about blah blah blah..." Yes I know what's right and what's wrong but I would appreciate it if he'd offer to give some moral support. He doesn't have to be here all the time and tell me off. I just want to know if he'd show some help and support somehow.

Okay now I'm upset (gosh I won't smoke because of this). I wonder what else I won't need support on. People think I can handle things on my own. Maybe at the exterior, I can show that I am a strong, independent woman who can always manage on her own, but I'm also just a woman who needs the support of someone who cares enough to tell her that she's doing too much. I'm the kind of friend who will show support in whatever plans my friend might have. I will always be there for them if they need my point of view in their situation. I'll be there for them when they need my help but I will tell them when they're already doing too much. Why can't people be like that to me too?

At this point, I feel alone in my own endeavor...

Dream

Dream. Dream when you know you can't change what happened. Dream so you can find the inspiration. Dream so you will know when to hold on and when to let go. Dream is best when it's about you. Dream is what makes me long to be with you. Dream is where I first met you. Dream of you and me under the moon and the stars. Dream of a the music and the dance you wish you could do. Dream is what you and I did for most of the May evenings. Dream is the wish that came true. Dream is not what I do in the evening, but my habit everyday. I dream when I speak about you, I dream when I write about you, I dream so I can see you in my sleep.

I dream until the morning calls me home.

Late Hero

Don't be a late hero. If you know you can already give or do something on your own, do it. Don't make me wait.

Black Label

In your lips I taste
the sweet bitterness
of the whisky
and your tongue
takes in the coolness
of the ice

Tonight I will
love you again
And take you again
in this whirl wind
fantasy

And in the morning
I'll fill my mind with
thoughts of you
and let my heart
savor the taste
of your love
in an amber colored
drink

With the kiss I seal
the words I wanted to say
saving the farewell for
another tomorrow

Did I Dream of You or Was it You Dreaming?

I woke up this morning with you as the first thought in my head (as usual). I just had a dream about you and in that dream, you and I keep on trying to flirt with each other.. at Work. But it's a very different workplace. Still, we talked and we laughed like we used to. But the underlying message in that dream is that you don't want me to leave.

Well, it wasn't a message. I actually heard you say it and I saw it in your eyes.

Now I'm not sure if I was dreaming of you, or if you were the one dreaming of me. One thing's for sure, we both didn't want to go. I guess that's one dream we both share and one moment we hope will come true.. someday.

This time, I hope that dream does comes true.