The Great M.O.

Did you ever asked yourself if you have really moved on? Moved on from a previous relationship I mean. Were there signs? I'm sure there are alot of realizations. You've listened to dozens of songs that you think better explains your situation. Self help books are available in every library or bookstore you go to. There are also a lot of ways you want to forget someone and this includes lots of drinking, crying, date-date-and-date, suicide (okay that's just plain stupid). But tell me, how and when can you say that you have really moved on?

My ex ended our relationship (friendship even) in the most idiotic way possible (the idiot being him). The break-up was smooth sailing at first, of course we still talk sometimes. And I admit there are times that I would text him that there might still be a chance yadda yadda (but it was already the second term in the relationship.. so pfft...). But then he had to call me names and ruined all the 7 years of knowing each other as friends, partners and lovers... and it's all because of some stupid idea that happened in our relationship and I don't know where and how the effing hell he got it (really. stupid.). Grrr...

Okay... I'm cool now. It's all over and past is past. I'm looking forward to what's happening in the present and what's going to happen in the future. :)

Anyway, the post break-up was the worst kind of thing he ever did to me. And take note, it's POST. I can't believe he was still able to make me cry after I broke up with him months ago! But I'm strong and I have alot of friends I held on to during those times. And having them around made me feel better. So I put it all at the back burner, left it there and moved on.

... but have I really moved on..?

I guess I ask this question because I bumped into him the other night while I was going home after work. I was waiting at a corner street and someone snapped his fingers at me, turns out it was my ex. I wasn't at all surprised to see him there (since I know his office is near by, I'm just not sure where)... what I was surprised at is that he made a move to greet me. We both said "hi", smiled and asked each other what's been going on. It was a really short chat since we're both rushing to go home. I got in my cab and he walked away. And so my day ended with me seeing my ex after a long long time.

I'VE MOVED ON. How can I say that? Because there wasn't anything there at all. If before, I used to want to hug him and give him a quick kiss at the cheeks, it was different this time. It was just like meeting someone you know, waving at an acquaintance in the street and after sometime, you forget already who it was you saw. It's not that he's irrelevant, he just doesn't stick to my mind like before. I've forgiven him now for what he did to me, and it's all just a memory that I can laugh at when I bring it up in a chat.

"Anger is not the opposite of Love. It is Absence."

Maybe it's not all gone. But they're all just fleeting memory. Smiles, laughter, love and bonding, all stuck in photopaper and images, nothing more. I'm focusing myself on other things, meeting other people, enjoying my time being single but still looking for someone I can share and make memories with. So I guess I can say I'm all ready for a new love.

It'll come in time, I know =) But I'm just happy I've finally accepted these things and learned from the past. And so, this is moving on =)