Blogmusing

you just posted something in your blog again. and i'm so nervous everytime i read your blog. i don't know... maybe because im excited that i might read something about you that i don't know yet. i might have another discovery about you. or maybe because im hoping you'd write something about me.

i remember in one of my blog entries, i mentioned that i'm nervous everytime i post a blog. i might say something there about someone and i don't know if that person will read it or not (yes.. to much anonymity.. i guess i still don't want to say it here who that person is). but one thing's for sure, i don't know what to write about you. i don't know where to start. should i say you made me smile again today? should my sentence start with your name?  is the internet the best place to put everything how i feel about you? okay.. well for that last part, maybe not. still, I want to write something about you. something not everyone knows about. but i guess i have yet to know what it is i should know about you.

but your blog isn't about me. it's for somebody else. someone i never knew but i guess that person is important to you that you have something to say. somehow, reading through it, i realized there are alot of things i need to know from you. i need to get to know you better. written words can lie... and i can only make up a story about you and me but i don't want that. i guess i need more sunday nights alone with you.

somehow i have a lot to say but couldn't find the right words to say it. i guess that's always the case with me. i'd rather that i say what i want to say than just make up an excuse and beat around the bush. but don't worry, you'll read something different next time. I just don't know if you'll notice that it's about you.

(don't bother asking... effect of emo music and reading alot of stuff... notice all paragraphs (except first) ends in YOU)