why the fucking hell do i even bother to fall in love?? who the heck had ever thought of the notion that falling in love is easy?! in this cracked up world, nothing is easy. not even loving someone you know you couldn't have. it's all just a sales ploy to sell out music, movies, chocolates, and even the frigging flowers that would die in 7 days.. fine i'm bitter and you can't do anything about it. because it's my heart that is bleeding but still beating even if I've been trying to make it stop. it won't. my heart had a mind of its own and if it wants to fall for someone now, it doesn't even ask me anymore. I'm crazy and my feelings are getting a lot more complicated. I feel nervous everytime my heart is beating for someone and it's driving me friggin crazy. I'm not wishing to be loved by someone, I'm not even entirely over a previous heartache (i think) then another person will come to make my uneventful day be so full of surprises! i can barely sleep at night thinking about it.
this is really annoying... the sudden rush, the butterflies in my stomach, the deep deep sighs, the crazy smiles, the stars, the intense feeling...
damn.. I'm so not ready for this shit...
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