Buhloo days

It's one of those blue days where you don't know what's wrong. You're just suddenly quiet and has a sad look in your eyes. But people around you don't see that. One person would ask you if you're okay and you'll say "yeah I'll be fine." but you know you're not. You want them to ask you more questions on what's bothering you.

You look out the window and find yourself alone again. The world outside is so vast and so alive but inside you, you're lifeless. Why can't you feel the energy that's going on outside? Why is it that everyone is thinking so big ideas that suddenly makes you feel so small and insignificant? Like there's no purpose.

But you know there is a purpose. There is a reason you're here. But you just let your self this chance for loneliness to seep in and embrace you in a gloom. You call it gloomy Monday, but the day is not important. You just feel gloomy, that's it.

Alone. Alone again. Playing with memories in your head, wishing that someone out there will just sweep you off your feet everytime you're feeling down. Where is the knight in shining armor when you need one? Who cares if he doesn't come on a white horse or his armor is all busted. What's important is that man will just be there to hold you and remind you how fascinating you can be even if you're in that lonely state. Because you are your true self that made him want to be with you. And he will try to take all those sad looks away. He'll keep you busy, distract you, cheer you on, make you laugh, hold you tight, make you feel like a child again. He'll be that person whom when he asks you if you're okay, you can finally tell him that you're not and he will take care of everything. No matter what it takes, he'll listen and make everything right for you even for a while. And you'll feel better and the "buhloo days" will be gone for now.

Next time it happens, he'll still be there just to make you smile.

Where is he? :(