Popping the Question

Pop!
There it goes.
All you said was a question
I thought it was a lie.
All I did was laugh.
All you did was smile.

Pop!
For a moment I was
blank
I don't think it was a joke.
So I need to ask the question
again
I had to take a
better look

Is it a good laugh?
Is that a surprise smile?
Was it a Yes,
Or was it a No?
Maybe I should't
have done so..

Pop!
And the surprise
Finally came.

Tonight I Won't Write The Saddest Lines

Tonight I won't write the saddest lines
Instead I will write on the longing
I saw in your eyes
As you looked at me for the last time.

Tonight I won't write the saddest line
Of how sad it must've felt when I said
goodbye
For I will just say, "It's not yet our time."
You and I are two butterflies
Dancing freely in the garden of life.

Tonight I will not write the saddest lines
As our story is not over
For two lovers who fell apart
Will find themselves walking down
the same road again
Holding each other's hand.

Tonight I won't write the saddest line
Not of how weak I felt when we parted
But I will say instead that I found strength
to let go
Even as I watched you walk away.

Tonight I won't write the saddest lines
As hope is seen in these words
When someday we'll find ourselves
loving each other again.

Love Much

I'm taking the suggestion/advise of two of my friends. What they said makes perfect sense and I think this is where the "love wisely" idea will start. The two Anna's in my life said that I should just be with the one who loves me more. You see, it's always just me who falls head over heels in love with someone and then in the end, I find myself getting my heartbroken because of my stupidity and believing every word or promise they say. I've had enough of that so I chose to love wisely this time. One of the Anna's said that in time, I'll find myself loving that person and that it would be good. It means I don't have to rush myself to fall.

I said before falling in love is one crazy trip on a roller coaster. I think I'll stay away from that at the moment. It's fun to fall in love but there would come a point in your life that you will have to learn to love wisely and or else you'll just "fall apart" instead of "fall in love"

Reposting: Just Like This

Can I just say it? Can we just stay like this? You and I don't know each other anymore. We have but one definition of ourselves:

FRIENDS. That's right. We're just friends.

But what if there's something more than that? I don't know. I'm not even sure myself. That's why I'd rather we stay like this. Me knowing I have these feelings for you, while you don't know what you feel. But for your sake, I won't admit it. I'll hush up and keep it to myself. You'll still see me smile, laugh, be witty and would share alot of experience on life. I'll be like that because that's how you understand me.

What if, it's the other way around? You have these special feelings for me too and I don't know anything about it. You'll just keep on acting like you do. Then please, stay that way. Just be naive of what I feel; of what you feel towards me when you see me smile at you. Because the only way I can tell you what I feel is through this smile I have on my face. Don't say anything. Let's just not know the love we feel for each other. It works for us now, we should not complicate things.

So hush up and don't say anything. My lips are sealed. It's better this way: simple, not complicated, undefined.

Just What I Need

A distraction. I'm glad I have a friend who can distract me somehow. I'm already filled with lots of things to think about with work and career that it clashes already with my emotional baggage.

That's very, very bad... I hate being distracted at work.

We just chat in YM and talk about alot of things. Mostly funny stuff that's happening with our lives. I'm not that close to him but somehow I'm seeing a connection. He distracts me with the things that make me feel so sad. But it's good that he doesn't know that. Atleast not too many questions asked. I prefer it this way.

"Dude, thanks. I'm glad we got to talk. I'll keep laughing with you."

Missing Fly-boy

You fly off to far regions to explore and experience. Then you come back to me to tell me all your adventures and the stories, and I looked at you with awe as I think of how far you had gone when once you just stayed on the ground with me. Remember how much we love to tell stories to each other, that even if I lay here firmly planted, we know we both will fly together someday. I still have those dreams with me, and I carry them with care.

Now you flew off again and found love at another place. And I admit it hurts watching you fly with another. It must feel different flying with someone else and not with me. I wonder if you ever noticed that. I envy you both as I watch you both soar to the sky, while I silently cry on the ground.

Maybe I'm not meant to sprout wings like yours. Maybe I'm just really made to stay here and wait and long for someone who would also be in the same position as I am; feet firmly planted on the ground, sharing the life on this earth. I hope you would take time to look back, check up on me on the ground. I just want you to know that I still dream that someday, I might get those wings and you'll be there to reach out for me... and we can finally share that dream of flying together... But for now, I will be patient and continue to hope for that dream to come true.

Bloggerina

I write when thoughts need to be locked down on paper
I write when imaginations are getting too heavy
I write to make the fantasies seem better
Than what I have in this reality.

I write when inspiration drifts by
During days of quiet sinks in
I write when I feel my heart could not cry
And the words holds her secret within