All the while, it was just a facade. But underneath there was nothing there. Who woulda thought we could trick everyone about it? Made them believe and watch a sort of teleserye forming out in front of their eyes. They even looked forward to what's going to happen next! Would you believe that? That we are just mere characters formed in their minds because some people thought "they look nice". It was all just a misunderstanding. There was nothing there, really. We were just joking.
And then years after, you come face to face with that person and you're both in shock when one of you suddenly asks, "Was it just really a play thought of by them? I thought I sensed something else was brewing underneath all that acting?". And deep inside, you start picking up all those little pieces and wonder, what did really happen? Was there really a spark? Who ended the whole thing? Questions that you thought you never had to ask.
Reality still bites. And you tried it. This time you took another chance. Somehow, you realize, the imaginary play was way different from how you two acted towards each other in real life. Still, it was hard. You just can't seem to find the right words, you don't know how you should really react. As compared to the script made by them, this time there's no cue on how you should start, who should say something first. You tried the baby steps but it's still hard to try and do it on your own.
And so, you both just end up as characters in a play. Better to be lovers there than in real life. Easier, more manageable, atleast the mask and character is your own shield. In the time you've been together, shields down, you find it hard to show the real you. It's all so complicated. But it's best to be just the make believe couple everyone thought of.
(okay... wtf??? sometimes I scare myself on what i write. Can someone please tell me if I made sense at all?? geez. That's not even me in the text (I think))
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